If anyone has suffered from IF you know there are good days and bad days. The bad days hit you hard when you least expect it.
Take tonight for example. I was posting on the regular IF threads that I always do, and WHAM I started thinking about everything that IF has taken from me. I try to think of all the good things I have gained from this experience (knowledge, understanding of my body, good friends to share these experiences with, strength.....) But the bad keeps taking over my thoughts.
So I have decided to make a list of all the things IF have taken from me.

*trust in myself as a wife and woman *patience
*my ability to enjoy life * happiness
*my thoughts *the meaning of the word RELAX
*my ability to be happy for others who are pg
*and most importantly it has taken my chance to have a family of my very own.

Now what has IF given me?
*uncomfortable conversations with family & friends (in fear that they may say something to upset me)
*The ability to cry at the sight of a pg woman, or a baby on T.V.
*The ability to see who my TRUE friends are.
*The ability to just smile, when someone asks if I'm pg yet....and then cry later
*The ablilty to see when people are putting pity on me

Now this might just be the clomid talking tonight.....
either way, unless you've been here, you will never know how any of this feels