Where do I belong?

Well like I said in my last post we are ttc again. I have been tracking O for the past 2 cycles and its worse then before.
I dont know where I belong with this. DH and I are going to have to go back to the clinic, and possibly have more iui's at the very least.
I cant be in any 'trouble conceiving' areas because I did just have a baby, and I know (from reading other posts to other people) that I have no right to worry about this. I do understand the pain of not being able to have a baby when others can, so I can kind of understand this I guess....but I still dont feel the support you should.
And I cant be in a reg. ttc clubs because I do deal with IF and its very real, and I dont feel like I connect with those people (the ones who get preggo 1st try) on a ttc level.
So this leaves me feeling like I cant talk to anyone about my fears. DH and I are both worried that we wont be able to conceive again and it scares me so much that we decided to try now. I was told that because of my eggs, I might not be able to conceive again, unless we try right away. So here we are, and its really left me sitting here alone. I am ever greatful for my son, and if he's all that we were ment to have then so be it, but I just need to know.
Anyways, I really wanted to send this out into cyber space and get it off my chest.

Almost 6 months!!

Well I have been REALLY bad at updating my blog. Life is going by so fast, there is barely time to smell the flowers and write a post...lol.

Colton is amazing!! He is so good, and growing like a weed. He's a good camper, traveler, and shopping buddy.

He is rolling, sitting (for about a minute before slowly tumbling over), teething, & giggling, and even starting swimming lessons!....I must say this is a FUN age. Well minus the teething part....He is also eating food and weighs 19lbs, and is 27" long!!!! Thats my BIG boy.

So I must be nuts to say this, but we are ready to do it all again. Yup, you read right.....DH and I are ttc again. So far, its a no go :( After I took the clomid the first time I stopped Oing all together, and it seems like its still that way. If nothing happens by Jan, then back to the clinic we go.

My goal, is to stay at home with my babe(s). I might take on some daycare kids....I dont know.

Anyways, I dont know if anyone even checks this thing anymore, but I thought I'd throw a random, quick update out there....