Prayers for a friend, and some much needed bedrest

Well I have 2 things I wanted to write about.
First, I wanted everyone who has gotten pregnant (with drugs or without) to understand how lucky they actually are. I have a cyber friend named Billy Blue Youkon and she is having a hard time. She has now had 5 missed m/c's and has been told by the fertility clinic there is nothing else they can do. How does someone take that news? She wants so BADLY to be a mother, and someone actually had to look her in the face and tell her, its not going to happen. I wish I could do something to help the hurt she is feeling. She asks how I'm doing, and I feel guilty telling her (even though I am having my own problems, I still got to experience this miracle). They are now taking steps for adoption, and I hope things move fast. Her and her dh have waited long enough!
And Second.....I had my OB appointment yesterday. The OB thinks the bleeding might be the hemmorage getting bigger, and pulled me off work for a week until I have my next u/s. Then we meet with her again to find out what is happening. It sucks because they always have to prepare you for the worst, but when she started talking about surgery, tieing my uterus shut, early delivery and c-sections....I got quite upset. So again I spend this week of rest praying that my bean is ok, and we see all good stuff at the u/s on Monday.

So I have been bleeding...still. And it seems to be getting worse. It comes and goes....
When will this end? I want to enjoy this pregnancy, but when can that happen?
I hear the little heartbeat everytime I see blood and it helps me stay sane, but I still pray non stop for my little bean.
Being 17 weeks, you'd think that things would be going more smoothly.
I am counting down the days until my next OB appointment, and still pray its all good news.

15 weeks, one strong heartbeat, and some little baby kicks....

Well I'm happy to announce that I have made it this far! It still feels like such a strange dream, and I just need to wake up.

I had my first OB appointment 2 weeks ago (I know I'm a bad girl, and not updating sooner) but it went great! She even told me why I was spotting for the past 10 weeks. I had my shot, and now I feel....more safe.

I actually felt better for about 2 days.....it scared the crap outta me. But dont worry I'm back to the ol' puking my guts out, and I feel much, much better. The OB was alittle concerned that I only have gained 3 lbs so far, but said everything was looking perfect.....Including the most amazing thing I have heard so far! A heartbeat going 168 bpm.....

And then theres the KICKS! Thats right, little flutters, but not gas....every now and then. Its when you LEAST expect it, and oh so distracting! I love it, and cant wait for them to happen more and more.

I thank God everyday for this little miracle