Well here we are....25 months and counting

We were married May 2006. Both of us knew we wanted to have a family right away. So my last bcp (birth control pill) was Feb 2006. I figured it would be amazing to be pregnant when we "tied the knot". Ha! I wish I knew then what I know now.



5 months into ttc, I thought I was pg. Best feeling I ever felt. I did a test. Positive. I burst into tears (yes, since this started, I do alot of that). I couldn't even wait for dh (dear husband) to get home to tell him, but I didn't have to. The bleeding started a few hours later. Then the cramps. Then all the other 'plesant' stuff that comes along with a miscarriage. There goes my baby. The dr confirmed it with a blood test but sent me away, saying there was nothing she can do.



We tried to concieve (ttc) for 1 year. Even before that I was starting to think there was a problem. At the 1 year mark, I was sitting in the doctors (dr) office bawling my eyes out explaining my concern. She looked at me like I was from some other planet and said well I will do a few tests, but your young so you just need to RELAX. She did nothing. I waited, and waited. I saw some of my best friends get pregnant and have babies, and I was still waiting. I never went back



My new dr was alot more concerned about what was going on. She sent me for so many blood tests I lost count. She put us on the wait list for the fertility clinic (in our city can sometimes take up to a year). Within 4 months of seeing this new dr....I had my first fertility clinic phone call. Again I was crying, finally someone wanted to help us. We were over whelmed the next few months, with tests and needles, and HSG's you name it, we had it. But once again they couldn't find a single thing wrong.



My Fertility dr put me on 4 cycles of clomid. First three were exactly what you would expect, crappy side effects, perfect O (ovulation), shorter cycle length and PAINFUL periods. The 4 cycle was different. No O, no side effects, no cramps and barely any period. The dr decided it would be best if I took 2 cycles off of the drugs, before I went back on clomid and IUI. First cycle off clomid....exact same thing. No O, no cramps, nothing....So here I am. I have started my last untreated cycle, and I have no idea what my body is thinking right now. I can't get back into the clinic until May (except for my IUI next month), So I just have to cross my fingers that this cycle isn't a dud too. Aside from trying a few different things, and going to accupuncture this time, I am lost. So thats my story thus far.....25 horrible months in a nutshell

~CJ